Back to work!

So, tomorrow I start my new job here in Connecticut. YIKES!! James is off the next two days so Everett does not start day care until Wednesday. I am totally freaking out about Wednesday. I am suppose to just drop my son off with these strangers and go to work and not worry. Yeah right. Those of you that know me know that I am an insane worrier. I do believe that my first day at work with him at day care is going to give me an ulcer!! I might actually throw up after I drop him off. I'm getting sick to my stomach just thinking about it. I visited a lot of centers in the past 2 months and chose this one. What if I chose the wrong one? Holy crap! James and I made a deal. I am going to give this job my very best for a few months. I will see if there is a real possibility of me building a clientele there or not. If there isn't I am gone. I will go back to staying home with Everett and we will just have to scrape by each month. Starting out I will only be making just barely enough to pay for day care so if I can't make more than that very quickly it just isn't worth it. Also, if Everett seems to hate it we will yank him out. I really don't want to go back to work, but I really need to give it my very best shot. I know if I don't try to build clientele here now I never will and I will always wonder if I could have. We will see how it goes. I will update you when I know more. BTW - here is a recent picture of Everett. Now you can see why I am reluctant to just drop him off with some random people!